Goals for the month:
1. Weight loss
2. Life restructuring
My birthday is exactly one month away. Much debauchery is planned - not that I intend to remember any of it.
Okay, I'm mostly joking. I have bigger priorities than drinking myself into oblivion, but I do intend to actually go out and have fun. I've spent the last several years Scrooging myself on my birthdays. It was part of my philosophy of "I could lose everything tomorrow so I'd better not get too attached today" that developed after losing my parents. To a degree, I still feel like that deep down inside. I've found it harder to live with my arms wide open when I know exactly what it feels like when things fall away.
I've been working towards living like I could lose everything tomorrow so I'd better absorb every ounce of joy I can find today. So, I'm going to celebrate my birthday this year.
That's where the weight loss comes in. I want to look effin' smokin': like the old me who didn't know what fear felt like. Maybe if I can get to that point, everything else will follow.
As for the life restructuring, that ties into all of the above, too. This month, I will completely clean my house, apply for school and financial aid. I will write down where I want to be in the next six months and make that happen.
(But first: breakfast! Oatmeal for me, oatmeal and fresh baked banana bread for Bug.)